I have not been here for around 6 months,
now only i realize why, because i don’t know what to write, haiz~
*trying to do it everyday ^^
was so busy working, make myself so tiring,
people say time will heal everything, but i can’t feel that it is healing me…when is my turn? do i need to take number?
*please be fast*
mum look disappointed, sorry that i disappoint you. I know you tried to make me feel better when you know i feel sad for it, thanks, it does make me feel better. Home is always the best place to go.
finally i need to accept even i don’t want to, it is hurt, even much than i expect, trying to come down myself by making me busy all the time, i hope i will never feel free for one second, it isn’t a good and i know but at least it did heal me for that memont, it did release me from pain.
what i can do is just say sorry to those that i disapointed, those i wasted their time of teaching me, i am so sorry.
maybe it isn’t my world, so i am not welcome. anyway, trying to be strong, be better if i could. i really hate the feeling of leaving,it is so hurt.here, wish you all pass thru all the paper with a flying colour result and i gonna miss you guys so much. i am so so so happy to meet you guys. started miss you guys. T.T
went to watch the coolest fast and furious 5, it is awesome!!! worth to pay for RM 11.50, btw, it is a nice seat XD
on our way back, there was an accident happened on highway and the car’s number is 898, so~, yupe we gamble a little bit, really just a little, right after 7.30pm, i got a call from yiwem (one of the gambler), she said we won the special prize, it is a little gambling and little winning, that’s our LUCK!!!
story wasn’t end there, when i was on my way back to KL by bus, the bus spoilt right infront of the toll after 15 minutes, i thought it is going to bomb, it’s sound crazy and excited. one thing i can’t finger out? how taxi driver knows that we *needed* them? unit of taxi was increasing right after the bus spoilt, sound wrong right?!? anyways, i am not that stupid to take taxi since i have my brother with me, after 20 minutes, we got in to another bus so it wsn’t that worse because it was happened when i was alone and i had been waiting for almost 1 hour for another bus so is it consider good?
OK~ it is monday now, mean i have 2 more days to acceptthe fact no matter is good or else…
oh god, bless me pass thru it,
was preparing to accept the worse, what will i do???
cry? or chill?
hope it is what i want, oh please please please…
today will be the day to restart my blogging life,
i don’t know how long will it maintain, just try as long as i could i think XD.
get off from my previous lazy life, bye bye~
time to have a hard life…
anyways, firstly, just to defense, ‘allien’ which with double ‘L’ isn’t a mistake,
actually is trying to make it special/create my own style and i know it doesn’t
but it looks nice to me, that’s enough.
so~ ALLIEN!!! fight for your life.XP
now i realised i am growing as they are *olding*
father works hard for his remining life for us;
mother stay strong for her family , us.
what i was thinking is i can be independent so i can be strong when i am alone,
now i know i couldn’t learn be independent if without them,
when i was baby, they took care of me,
teach me to be independent until I do,
when it comes, they are old,
my turn to take care of them, my turn to pay the installment by my remaining life,
what pain they face, i can’t feel,
what things they did for me, i don’t know,
one thing that i know, i MUST pay…
so, i hope my god can hear my pray,
please,
keep them healthy,
keep them safe,
keep them happy,
whatever pain or unfortunate, pass it to me,
thank god.
father:
i am sorry upon what i hurted you, i don’t mean it, i was trying to say sorry but my mouth wasn’t functioning.
sometime you were annoying, but i feel so uncomfortable if you don’t talk, i am sorry that i was just emo,
i do feel sad and worry when i know you hurt or you don’t feeling well, so sorry that i don’t know what to do to express myself,
dad, thanks for everythings that you gave me, i do appreciate it,
sorry for everythigs that i did to you.
all my love to you and mum.
mother,
you teach me a lot since i was young, so sory that i fighted with you, i know that wasn’t right,
with you, my life’s lesson be so meaningful,
what i learned/have is you gave it to me,
i will stay strong as you do, and keep this family *operate* ,
as long as i am still breathing, i will do everything for you, daddy, and this family.
god bless mummy and daddy…
woh woh woh,
never be as tired as this few months…
tired with the peoples there,
tired with the management there…
improvement?
no no no, why?
cos they think they are right so what to do?
easy!
SUCK IT UP!!!
*management:
once you cant handle or settle your problem, it will never disappear,
soft? have the way to be…
straight? wrong way when it is too hard…
try to be the one, try to feel like what we feel and what we face,
that will help a lot…
management should involve not avoid,
if not you will never know / believe,
staying inside will never help you solve anything,
problem made by human so it should be solve by human too,
good management, lower turnover…
*stuff:
complain it doesn’t help although they give you the hope,
do what you should,
stay far from what you shouldn’t,
what you said and what you did *BAD*, they will remember,
but what you said and what you did *GOOD*, they will try to recall when you ask too…
SUCK!!!
hey guy, sorry that i cant attend your birthday ‘party’…
i gonna go home on thursday cos i am working on friday, saturday and sunday,
anyway, hope you really enjoy your day ya…
i think it is a bit late but still have to say:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LUAN MEAN MEAN!!!
wish you get a flying colour result for last sem and the coming exam too ya…
love you so much…
muachhhh, XD
the world is going crazy…
more and more shareholder is out…wtf…
how can they be so stupid and how can she also be so blind?
good?where?can’t see…
different?which part?can’t find…
any other reason except this?that’s all?not enough for me to bind it…
congratulation to u that u did out from the game,
congratulation that you lost something that you thought ‘it is good’
congratulation that you didn’t get into that trouble,that’s mean i will not involve in this trouble too…
what the hell is going on with your eyes?you better check it as soon as possible…
what the hell were u thinking of?i think u need to refresh or wash it,it is stuck…
it is not a good investment,
they are a perfect match shareholder, and you are out…
and,
PLEASE,DON’T JOIN IN ANYMORE…
awake from it,you slat/bitch…
remember you are a slat/bitch not SHAREHOLDER…
trouble out,we out,we safe,the world is so beautiful man…
*many peoples will not know what is shareholder,no need to guess,this is the way we communicate!!!
